Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Catharsis

It's one of those days when the molecules of thought have broken all level of mutual binding force and are hitting hard on the skull and hence I return to 'Catharsis'. All those molecules which were so close to each other once when they all actually wanted me to head towards one direction. They were my captives. What a bliss it had been; an absolute bliss in captivity.


I wonder why did I ever tried to insert something external to break the harmony. The one drop of it had no effect. It was gradual, very gradual. I have been checking the pace at regular intervals. The mutual force has broken in steps. I still remember. That intellectually stimulating conversation at one of those coffee shops. Those questions which I had never asked to myself.I thought it's just one of those conversations but I am not me anymore. It has hit hard. The 'me' has again dissolved.The search has again begin. I am empty now See you staring with a smile up in the sky.You did that again to me. I welcome the angel.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Camouflage...

''Camouflage'' the natural defence mechanism by which an organism ensure its survival from the predator by hiding itself in the natural surroundings similar to its physical experience.

The scientific terminology, I first learnt as a fifteen year old kid. With my growing accademic degrees in the natural sciences, the word camouflage broadened its horizon in my mind. Various examples of it, a weaker prey like butterfly or squirell use the cryptic mechanism to save itself from predators. Even the predator like'tiger'uses camouflage to (hide in the bushes matching its skin colour)hidefrom the preys and attack them more efficiently. Killing or preventing oneself from getting killed, 'Camouflage' makes survival possible. None is exception.

The other day, I was pondering over the camouflage in humans. Homo sapiens, the one known for its sapience. what relevance does camouflage has on the survival of my species? The significance of physical camouflage is probably does not hold much relevance in the 'civilized' society. However, mental camouflage is evident in the behaviour of people. We can often see ourselves camouflaging. Sycophancy is a camouflage. To survive in an organization, a less knowledgeble person A is equivalent to a butterfly or squirel could be found to impress the higher authority B by constantly aligning his opinion with his B. In this case, the opinion held by B represents the leaf similar to the colour of butterfly. 'Cryptic coloration', that is what it is scietifically called.

Women if analysed carefully show an intersting mental camouflage. Being physically weaker than the men, they need some kind of defence mechanism to protect their integrity. Howsoever true may this statement may be, it seems gross to any civilzed men. Our social values ensures to tone down any mishap occurring becuse of this asymmetery in the genders. Ocassionally, we do hear of representation of physical prowess of men. For e.g. rape. A girl eqivalent to butterfly if spotted in a surrounding in contrast to her mental/physical state is prone to attack by a male. The mental harrasment faced by some of the talented women at work place by the opposite gender is also an example of the similar situation. In contrast, a woman who meets the expected social codes camouflages by geling well with the social structure. Even if she is impolite, she would act to be polite.I have seen one of the impolitest woman switching on to the polite behaviour infront of their in laws/boy friends/husbands. That is the survival mechanism. Thus socity becomes nature in figurative sense. Woman is a butterfly camouflaging is the society.

I don't see camouflage in a positive light. If I am a beautiful butterfly, I would like to be seen by all. Crypsis is unacceptable to me. I am extremely positive about progressive evolution of the human society. My appeal to all the women

Let us defeat camouflage. Show your feathers. Beauty desrves to be spotted and not to be hidden.

To be continued.............

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

I flowed, turned molten and then froze. I started calling myself structured but how could second law of thermodynamics ever prove wrong. I flowed again, faced, barriers, saw the weeds flowing into me with me. I resisted. I stopped. I turned molten and froze again.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I want enough empty space between you and me. What about dating in a vaccum. Even molecules would be absent and silence would speak for us.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

It takes off finally!

Monday, March 8, 2010

It's still not sinking in!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

The baby is screaming. I do everything yet I am not able to figure out why is it so. What does it need? I gave everything what it wanted. I don't know. Screams...thts what I hear. More of it everyday. All my efforts end in vain. People say that if she disturbs too much, I should leave her but then I am no one without her.They killed their babies long back perhaps. My baby will remain with me. I will find out the way to calm her, to satisfy her. She will be contended some way but we are never going to part.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Script

When I started writing, I did not have the slightest inkling where it is taking me.Now, completing so many chapters, just wonder if I can delete some. I Never wanted, they seemed like a baby. A new chapter always excited me, but the older ones the sordid one keeps clinging. Joy, trust, fear, surprise, anticipation .......everything. I thought it made so much sense, the good ones the bad ones defined my ideologies. Made me what I am. The author of the Script, 'ME'/'I'.

A wave came, caught me unaware, the script has vanished.

'I' remained to write again

A new begining only to come to an end again.

Conscience

My conscience just told me taht one thing to which you should always be honest is me. I am your constant companion. Never forget me. If you do, I will never forgive you.

High-Way

Brain with differnt compartments with emotions stored in each. It feels good when few compartments gets closed. The way it got yesterday. It feels pleasant. I wish them to close them forever. Need a mechanism to recycle the wastes in these compartments or should I get rid of them completely.Thinking!!

I wished the plane could never fly.I wonder if I can be the pilot of that flight. What is your flight number by the way? Shall I come to fly with your permission. Oops!I need to ask the pilot.A tear trickle down. 'The airtel connection you are trying to reach is switched off.' The plane flew. Why did not it wait for me.

That's what happens whn you go HIGH WAY.

I wish to come back soon.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

First Law of thermodynamics

Actions are truly an experimentation. When you are performing an act you don'trealise. You stay in the system, understand the intricacies and when nothing is left to explore, you come out of it and visualise. Sometimes, its positive emotions which you gain from the system. Sometimes its all negative. You come enriched or you give some to it.In all, system never loses anything. One just has to realise that she is a tiny constituent in that system.

First law of thermodyanamics does question individualism and has brought an important realisation.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Selfishness all around. Is it in these days?. People seem obsessed with the idea of self.

Friday, February 5, 2010

This question of morality ruins humanity and elevates immoral who feels happy to call himself moral!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Mannerism is decptive. It brings order and uniformity for effective communication and yet it creates rifts when we do not meet a little less civilized ill-mannered people even if they touch our heart. It teaches us to use thank you and sorry more often, as an excuse to cause mistakes more frequently and we love to be mannered.Who will not? It hides us. It makes us feel good. It creates a veil between us and how we are suppose to be. I apologise to all the mannered people.I am sorry if I have hurt their sentiments.Am I really feeling so? I need to check perhaps!
Nothingness is awesome, yet I am scared, fulfillment haunts me.It would follow soon, conquring all the free space. I wonder where I will go? I praised idleness. Russel, could you answer me?

Thursday, January 28, 2010

The question of immorality banged my head. It was unplesant. It continued for long.I was oblivious. It became plesant,I was immoral and this time it was a turn of morality to bang.